Sometimes I sit down and think about losing my youth in such a manner, but it happened and there's no way you can ever reconcile or recapture that. Your childhood is gone and in such a manner that you never recover sometimes. Some things stay with you. I give you an example. I am a single man but when I come home, my cupboards and fridge are always full of food. You are always worried that you will be hungry. It is something you can't explain. While not everyone can, it is important to talk and not let the past stay bottled-up inside. I visited my sister in Hungary and her son many times, until she passed away. I don't care to go back to Hungary very much, though.